no apologies necessary

dear ari
it may be
business as usual
for a law man
for you––

the way a lawyer
like yourself
invokes the grittiness
of reality––

but i am 64 years
old & have cancer

every failed interaction
with you does me
emotional harm
which my being
translates into physical
pain

all forms of hostility
hurt me

is this your professional
competence
or humanitarian incompetence––
i don’t know––

it makes me
ill

& if that illness
brings me
down

maybe you’ll want
to celebrate with a war
hoot––

or permit me to make a suggestion––

why don’t you just
indulge yourself
in the chance
to make me
a bright new
notch on the handle
of your favorite
revolver––

with no apologies necessary
the way lawyers do?