no apologies necessary

dear ari
it may be
business as usual
for a law man
for you––

the way a lawyer
like yourself
invokes the grittiness
of reality––

but i am 64 years
old & have cancer

every failed interaction
with you does me
emotional harm
which my being
translates into physical

all forms of hostility
hurt me

is this your professional
or humanitarian incompetence––
i don’t know––

it makes me

& if that illness
brings me

maybe you’ll want
to celebrate with a war

or permit me to make a suggestion––

why don’t you just
indulge yourself
in the chance
to make me
a bright new
notch on the handle
of your favorite

with no apologies necessary
the way lawyers do?