why? & how

let go of being
   lonely

i believe in
   you––whoever
you are.

i know i
   need you––
only you.

finding you is the
   reason every
      molecule of me is
   vibrating in this
skin.

when i’m not
   searching for you, i’m
      working, droning,
   dissipating my
lifetime.

to hold your hand is
   my destiny.

to find you is the one
   right thing through
      many cycles of
   dust & star
light.

how do i know this is
   not delusional? every
      conscious particle of my
   being points directly

   to your
heart.   

alone

   i am filled with
      shards of shattered
   hope & wounded
      dreams. my soul is

   torn by ripping gales
      of pain & poisoned

   by clouds of green
      malarial
depression.

i pray for you

   with every pulsing
      fragment of my
   being.

   i’m filling my
      soul with beauty &
   with light, to share with
   you––

      all that i am
   is yours––

      only for
you.