dear God,
i am vexed
i am vexed
with pain &
innocence
humiliated
& accused
i hurt, i hurt
but why?
but why?
i am vexed by the integrity
in the center of my being
that instructs me quietly
in doings
far bigger than my
self
i am vexed by my community
watching watching
silence silence
Dushka Dushka
you trusted me
in your life
you trusted me in your dying
you trusted me with your legacy
for what i did for you
in life & after
did i ever benefit by more
than in the trust & respect
of the people
whom i now
love?
did i not draw them together
to serve your work?
what further interest
can attach to me?
together we created
a space in the world
for your dream to root
& grow––
to expand the minds
& hearts of how many others
with matchless discoveries
for their souls
your mother & your father
know this is true
Dushka Dushka
i have not
forsaken you
Dushka Dushka
do not forsake
me
each day i pray
for reconciliation––
a bringing together,
as you instructed
all of us
if i mis-interpreted your will––
show me how
teach me
to make one of two
& one of seven
before i move
on
dear God,
i want no enemies
i want no reward
i wish only the confidence
that I did Thy will
to fulfill
Thy trust