cancer is jakob wrestling
with the angel––
& i am
jakob.
they have given the
angel a frightening name &
cloaked her in
fear.
soon we will fight & i
will strive to kill
her.
my love of
life; the who that i
am; the what i am
becoming; the every
thing i must be,
demand this
of me.
if i defeat the
angel, i will receive God’s
blessing.
if the angel defeats
me, i will be blessed by
God.
& as i struggle with the
angel, the angel’s
heart is
mine.