source of the infinite

i want to be alive
   while i’m alive.

why leave the body
   before it’s
time?

i need to feel the sun
   through my skin

   to rove with my eyes
   among the
stars.

how will i calm this
   crying, starving
me?

how will i feed this
   formless self to
be?

i have heard the female
   voice pointing to

ecstasy & i know that
   the blood is a source
   of the
infinite

yet will they never
   sing to
me?

while i’m alive
   i want to be
   loved, to be
   touched, to feel

something

   so help me
God.