how i cling to it––
this fear
this nameless, gagging
trembling
frozen in a foetus pose
of wanting
i don’t know what is
hurt inside, why
this shell is thick
like a berlin
bunker
why i’ve buried my
desire for so
long
it’s time to end this
exile from the
sun
with a shock of sperm
to rise from my
roots like a sunflower
to dance like a
jaguar
to thunder
like lightning