as you lay dying

i
as you lay dying
      i talked to you
          & read you poems

spent my days
      loving you in silence

my nights in lonely shadows
    moaning like
          an orphaned child.

ii
when i learned you were dead
      i began counting
          heartbeats,
    treasuring every breath,
          making my life
a prayer.

iii
society prescribes
      a congenial period of wake
          & a church funeral––

         all i wanted was
a black year, sobbing for
    my mommy.

iv
on the day of your burial,
    you glimpsed the light
          we humans cannot see
                                                                                 
your smile grew soft,
    confident,
          fit for eternity.

v
the next morning, it rained &
    yellow leaves fell to
          the ground.

as i felt
    these things
          you entered
the sunrise.