too long

the angst machine is on
& i reel, warp & pain
like a man in solitary confinement
whose mind has burst
for no apparent reason.

turning red
then blue
then purple
inside

what is going on
has been going on
too long

& i need
a breath of existential air

i need life

to throw myself into life.

pardon me, my dear,
are you life?